Fruits

I'm learning about being fruitful. I'd love to say that I feel fruitful, but I feel more like I just planted seeds. I'm seeing my seedlings grow but I don't feel like they're obviously blooming. I guess I'm okay with that. Baby steps, right? I know that I'm making the efforts to maintain my seedlings, but occasionally I forget to water them. With watering can in hand, I move forward. I'm learning a lot this week. Previous notions I'm finding aren't what they appear. What I used to see as an 'elitist' club, is more like a support group. I will not feel deterred by the negativity of others. I will keep sowing my seeds and appreciating the fruits of my labor. ptl!

verbal diarrhea

Really?? When exactly was it that you decided that what I do is your business? Were you in on the decision to make me? Were you part of any forming years? Did you lead me down the right path and watch me stray? No. You don't know where I came from, you don't know where I've been, you don't know who I am. However, you feel like it's your right to look down from your glass perch to judge what I say and do? Really? That seems like an acceptable practice in your convoluted little mind? Well, let me let you in on a little secret. I've never portrayed myself as anything more righteous or perfect than what I am. I'm broken, but I'm on the mend. I've fallen and I'm regaining my footing. I've strayed, but I'm finding my path again. I'm sassy, I'm ornery, I'm a royal pain in the ass. However, I've never asked you to bear my burdens or fix my wrongs. I'm like to call names, I'm hypocritical, I'm picky, I'm sometimes bossy, and I hate to be wrong....but I've never treated you as though I'm any better. You know why? Because I'm not. I'm no better than anyone. I'm learning. My eyes are open and I'm making better choices. Did you hear me laugh the last time you fell? No. You know why? Because I wouldn't. I'm not sure who told you that being righteous meant that you could loom over people and spit your holiness from your castle of sand...but I'm not going to tear it down. That's not my job. If you need help I'll do what I can, but it's not my place to point out that you've got some faulty wiring and your moral compass is obviously not facing due North. I'm also COMPLETELY incapable of letting things go. I'm not willing to walk around giving myself diarrhea over all of the stupid things I hear you say and watch you do because you're better than the rest of the world. I've got to speak my mind and move on. So, that's what I'm doing. You can stand over me and talk down to me all you'd like. I'm short, I'm used to it. Do not, however, for one second think that what you have to say matters. Your ignorance and coldheartedness may unwelcomly affect me, but all I'll take from you is a lesson. Do unto others. Apparently you didn't get that memo.

Ode to my husband...

As I lay here, looking out the window at the falling snow
I’m thankful for this home we’ve made and seasons we have grown
It started just the two of us, we added a girl then boy
We rounded out our little family and filled my heart with joy.
I love that you’re the only one who knows me
In every way one can
I know that no matter what may come
You’ll always be my man.
Sometimes when things get stressful and life is troublesome
I can count on your ornery comments to add to the conundrum.
You’re a super wonderful husband, father, son and friend
And I’m proud to be your wife and I’ll love you til the end. <3


I'm feeling super gushy and lovey so I thought I'd share my terribad poem to my husband with you. I've not given it to him and I probably won't because it's too cheesy. However, I'll share it with the wonderful world wide web. I hope you don't laugh at me too much. Take care!

Simple plans

It's funny, you lean just the right way and OUCH! Huge stabbing pain in your back that makes it hard to breathe. Ugh. Super good time, let me just tell ya. So, I stretch and try to pop it because it's driving me crazy...however, no change. I can't get dick to pop it and I'm in pain. So, I went to the in-laws' to try the hot tub (yes, I know it was unseasonably rainy weather today...but we hopped in when the deluge was at a minimum.) Yes, we. The kids hopped in with me, we turned on the cool light in the waterfall and had a nice comfortable dip until we started talking and the taste of the water floating around our faces was appalling. It was also so potent-smelling that my nose started to burn. I got enough time with a jet directly into my spine for it to ease some of the pain and tension (thankfully) before we got wigged out by our unpleasant sensory abuse and had to get out. So, while my back is feeling so much better than it has since it decided to get sassy two days ago, we still needed to get cleaned up. It started pouring like crazy as soon as we walk back into the house to change (at least we dodged that bullet), but we were all covered in abusive bleach-water so I decided we'd test the capacity of the shower...and we all hopped in. Although we made a wet mess between the hot tub room doors and the bathroom, we managed to do a pretty good job getting a triple shower done in decent time and minimal problems. Who'd have thought?! So, the simple mini-hot tub adventure turned into a hot-tub debacle, but in the end I got what I needed which was a reprieve from the pain in my back. Yay! You'd have thought it'd be easy, but nooOOOOoooo. However, it worked out beautifully and I can't complain. So, that was MY night. I sure hope things went a little more smoothly for everyone else. Happy almost turkey day!

Shopping!

I love shopping. Well, let me rephrase...I love getting a good deal! I almost got run off the road by some dip-squat who decided that floating into my lane on a corner was a good idea. I got over-charged for a couple things, and maneuvering the crowds was a little less than fantastic, but all-in-all I did pretty good. I got the little guy a new coat for $25 at Old Navy, I got the kids each a pair of gloves (which is what I got overcharged on...but I'll go fix that next time I'm up there), and I bought myself a couple of long sleeved tees for only $5 each! I know that seems silly, but that's pretty big day for me! I got to see some family today, a few friends, and back home in time to enjoy them all comfortably. Thank the Lord for friends, family, and great deals!

Stressssssssssss

I feel like my brain isn't functioning properly due to an overwhelming lack ability to de-clutter my brain of stress. Does that make sense? See, I'm not sure because I'm so retardation clogged at the moment. I need to find a way to ensure a few things in my life and buckle down on the loose ends but I feel like there are more loose ends than secure ones at the moment. GGGRRRRRRR!! Biggest stressors at the moment? Christmas gifts, money, job availability, and the like. I just needed to get that off my chest. I feel better now. Kinda. I'll feel better later hopefully...for now I'm going to work on securing loose ends. Wish me luck!

Glowy Fall Awesomeness!!

I made this today...I Mod Podged leaves to a mason jar and put lights inside it for a cute fall decoration. This is my first mod podge experience and I kinda enjoyed it (maybe a little TOO much since I ended up mod podging about 8 things!).